Calm Or Numb

There is a strange calmness over me today. Had a crazy day today at work, feeling so exhausted, moms back from Calcutta. Things moving so fast, no time to rest no time to… Continue reading →

As I lay With You

I want to remember everything about tonight. Thats Why I want to write this right next to you. I want to remember how you look in purple light, handsome and wise. I wish… Continue reading →

He Said Yes!

He will meet me for one last time? How can I be so lucky ? How can he be go generous ? Can anyone be as good as my Bu is? I could… Continue reading →

I Try To Sleep Tonight

I think of all the ways I hurt you. Having been selfish all the way through. I left you alone when you needed me the most, when you were most unaware. I left… Continue reading →

It Will Happen

I will forget you There is a possibility that it will happen I will forget how It feels to have a hole where you were It will be possible To watch the rain… Continue reading →

Goodbye Sweet Home

Tomorrow is my last day at this home. I will miss being here, although I did not get enough time here, but the memories I made here will last me a lifetime. This… Continue reading →

It Was Better That Way

Now that I think of it, the way we said goodbye was better than that what I did that day. A plain simple, unceremonious goodbye that I did not have imprinted in my… Continue reading →

Not Today

I called you the other day, I am guilty. I ruined a good trip with the messages and by being myself, guilty. I am confused, cant think straight. I cant get a grip… Continue reading →

if this is my last post

I want to die tonight. i want to do it in a painful and slow way so I can think myself to death. my life has changed from perfect to this death wish.… Continue reading →

Beds and Dreams

You know Bu, event today I talk to you when I am lying in bed. Not one night goes by that I don’t see you in my dream. Last night I had the… Continue reading →